I'm a food addict to my core. My weakness is fast food. I literally will stop at Mickey d's and get a double cheeseburger on my way to eat dinner somewhere else. I tell myself this is the last time. But the shit is like crack. I tried to go to OA and it just didn't feel right. I understood the struggle that all these people were going through but i feel like my addiction isn't about quantity it's about quality. I eat bad foods. Or maybe it is quantity and i'm just in denial. I want to be better. I don't want food to have this kind of power over me. But unlike other addictions I can't stop eating. Crackheads can stop taking crack. Alcoholics can stop drinking alcohol. But I have to eat to live.
I guess I have to learn to just say no.
I almost broke down in my office while I was reading this. I felt like I was reading something about myself. I am a little further on my journey so I have been able to "control" myself a little better but I can really empathize with you. I am here to support you in any way that I can!
ReplyDeleteI knew I had a problem when my mouth starting watering when I was in the drive thru at Mickey D's one day. I can't say that I've kicked that habit, but I eat it MUCH less than I used to. I feel like I have the little devil and little angel on my shoulders when I'm heading home from work, and lately the little angel has been winning. Once I past the restaurant it's done. I'm too lazy to turn around and go back lol.
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